In case there was anyone out there hoping that yesterday’s 2nd beta test was going to be positive – unfortunately, I must report that it was negative again. Personally, I was not surprised to hear that news (though of course I would’ve gladly welcomed some surprising news that it was positive or that they gave us the wrong results on Monday). Since I was at my off-site meeting, I missed the call – but McKenzie left me a voicemail with the test results and said that Dr. Williams would like to schedule a follow-up appointment with us to review this cycle and talk about next steps. We’re supposed to call back to set that up – but I haven’t yet. [We’re stopping to get Taco Bell for lunch….yummy!!!]
Last time, we were anxious to talk to Dr. Williams and get moving on our next cycle. But we’re not really feeling that way this time around. I feel like our hope has been somewhat shattered in a way and we may be doubting whether we’ll ever succeed with these procedures. I think it would be a slightly different story if we had some more frozen embryos to try with. Even though I know that FETs only have a 27% success rate (compared to 40% with fresh IVF cycles), it’s discouraging to have another failed cycle under our belt. Another fresh IVF cycle would get us back to the 40% chance. And I remember Dr. Williams telling us that your chances don’t change for the first 5 IVF attempts. Physically, I could definitely go through many more cycles of IVF – the daily shots, all of the appointments, and the retrieval/transfer procedures are not bad. But it’s just tough to say how many more cycles we could handle emotionally and mentally – especially if we keep getting more negative results. For now, I think our plan is to take a break for awhile before we start another cycle. We’ll just have to take it one day at a time and figure out where we go from here.
As I mentioned we’re heading up for a friend’s wedding – so we have the rehearsal dinner tonight and the wedding tomorrow. I was hoping I’d have to pack up all of our needles/syringes/vials for this trip. I was also hoping that I’d have a reason not to be drinking for the wedding festivities. But since that’s not the case, I’m sure I will partake in the adult beverages with everyone else. (Don’t worry – there will be a shuttle service that we will be taking advantage of.) Looking forward to celebrating with Brex & Debbie! We will also get some quality time with 3 of our good buddies from Charlotte, too.
In closing, I'd like to wish a happy birthday to my cousin's tall boy down in Arkansas!